Thank you Lord!

Psalms 62:1-2 “My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him.  He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.”  Ps. 62:5-6 “Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him.  He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.  Ps. 62:7-8 “My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge.  Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. "Selah"

 

Last night I was spending time with my Lord, and He gave me Psalms 62:8 to read.  So I backed up after reading that scripture and read the entirety of Psalms 62.  So comforting.  You see, this last year has been challenging in so many ways.  Friendships gained, lost, ministry gone, family, illness, work, betrayal, hurt.  The one I haven't spoken of much is the illness part.  I still don't know what to put, but its something I've been dealing with since before I came back to the Lord in 2004, and am now back to facing it to find out what is wrong.   I saw another specialist today, and the scriptures the Lord gave me last night gave me the courage to proceed forward to see this doctor.  I liked him.  He spent almost an hour with me, and listened to everything.  He didn't make me feel like I was crazy. He didn't make me feel like I was making it up.  He did tell me he didn't know yet, but now begins the process of more tests.  Today, I am okay with it.  I just want to get to the bottom of it once and for all.

 

Several months back, I confided in someone I thought I could trust, and their response to me was "buck up" and basically told me I didn't have enough faith and that was why I hadn't been healed yet.  Whoa.  Hey, thanks for that tid bit of advice, next time keep it to yourself.  God's word says I need to have faith the size of a mustard seed — I've got that.  So why isn't my body healed yet?  I don't know.  I've searched.  I've talked.  I've prayed.  I've read scriptures over myself, etc.  Nothing changes.  What I've realized, however, is that through this journey I've met people I probably wouldn't have gotten to meet before.  I have gotten the opportunity to witness to so many people along this journey, and I praise God for that.   I got the opportunity to pray with one of my doctors.  How cool is that!?  That wouldn't have happened if my health was good and all was well. 

 

Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

 

I continue to praise and thank the Lord through this journey — I continue to pray for healing.  I pray for His strength, His purpose, His wisdom, His mercy.  God just use me.  He is so good to me, and I am so blessed in so many other ways that I hate to even complain about this one little issue.  I mean, really. 

 

Reading the book of Job has helped tremendously.  I will post more on my thoughts on that later, but the funny thing is that Job's friends thought that they had this tremendous insight into why Job was going through what he was going through, and they didn't have a clue! 

 

So why am I sharing this?  Because I am requesting prayer for this journey that I am on — healing first and foremost, but wisdom for me and the doctors — wisdom to know what to do.  That I would not get discouraged.  Strength.   Courage.  Boldness to speak about Jesus wherever I go.  Thanks muchas!

 

Oh yah, if you're going to tell me to have more faith, or to pray harder, or anything along those lines, please feel free to keep that to yourself.  :-)  If you want to be with me on this journey to just be there to encourage, please feel free, but if you think the Lord has given you special insight into why I'm sick (but He hasn't told me yet), again, please keep that to yourself.  May the Lord bless you in 2009!

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Author: Michele C.

First and foremost I am a Believer in Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I am a wife, a Mom, a young budding writer, and entrepreneur.

12 thoughts on “Thank you Lord!”

  1. Michelle:
    I won't pretend to be God and know what to do or why you are not healed. I will be praying for wisdom and healing because as you do I have faith.
    I have faith that God is still God and I will never understand His ways. I know that God does heal, but not everyone is healed. I know that God wants everyone healed, but He doesn't always get His way – if He did no one would ever sin and go to hell.
    I am hear to listen and support you through whatever, however, and whereever this journey may lead you.

  2. Thank you Amy. I appreciate it. I've been hesitant to write about it due to well meaning peoples' comments in past — but decided it was worth it to have others praying as well. I am very thankful for my husband, children, mom, dad and sister who have been very supportive and prayerful also. I am praying that it is something simple and easy to fix — and know with the Lord with me — all will be well, no matter what!

  3. Michelle,
    You are really something wonderful. I will join my faith with yours and know that you are healed in Jesus Name. Walk this journey with your head held high and continue to focus on God.
    Always remember that when you put your heart out there for others to see and feel that it may some get hurt, but it should only make you stronger. People are not always going to say what we want them to say and for me I believe that it keeps me on my toes, but don't harden your heart (I'm not saying that you are or have) just allow God to show you what NOT to say to someone else.
    Continue to share what God places upon your heart and make sure not to give the enemy any room to play on the ground that God has given you.
    You Rock!!!! Keep running until God tells you to stop. Your ministry is so strong. Soar!!!!!!! Keep flying.
    God Bless,

  4. Michelle, I judt wrote about this in my journal a week or so ago! I too am praying for helaing of my fibromyalgia, as it wreaks havoc on my body. I do not understand why i haven't been healed, nor is it my job to. In my pain, I choose joy everyday and will not let this consume me until it debilitates me. However, I have cried out to God many times and yet I will still praise him for the work he is doing in me and through me. As sick as I am, I still need to be a testimony to others that may be be going through the same thing, I have managed to learn how to smile through the pain and will never forget He has healded and continues to heal. This is not a matter of enough faith or lack of prayer. It is a matter of His plan for my life, and that I will question but never doubt! I will add you to my prayer list and if there is a specific prayer you want me to pray let me know!

  5. Amen Tamara! Thank you for sharing and responding and praying — and thank you for saying what you did — that really helps. 🙂 I just look at how many people I've gotten to touch and talk to about the Lord through this ordeal, and can't help but think that this is His purpose and plan right now — I continue to pray "not my will, but Your will be done." I do not know His ways — but I know of His love, and His neverending grace — and will praise Him in this too.

  6. Michele as you already know I am no stranger to illness, it has been my shadow for almost 29 years, between the affects of Rheumatoid Arthritis and complications from a thyroid cancer surgery which left me with chronic severe asthma I too have read and continue to read Job often, in that book I find strength when my body cries out it has had enough. I believe I am healed in Jesus name, my body just has not recognized it yet and in this life may not ever, but that is ok, because for whatever purpose God has for my life I do not question his will, I know He does not will for any of us to be sick, this I strongly believe so I too continue to praise and continue to lift my hands up to Him. He has seen me through some pretty difficult times and has never left my side and I will never leave His. My desire would be for a miracle of course, but my idea of a miracle may be entirely different than His. Through my illness among other things it has drawn me closer to God and through that relationship has seen all my children and grandchildren saved and 6 out of 9 of us water baptized as well as baptized in the Holy Spirit, my home has become a place where God is the head of the household so in many ways that in itself is a miracle. I will continue to pray for you as well as Tamara, you are both strong women of Godand illness doesn't stand a chance in your house, as Pastor Bill says keep fighting the good fight of faith, with God in your corner it is a fixed fight, you have already won! Hugzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

  7. Amen Patti! I love you — and love reading your writing — you keep on doing what you're doing too! We'll fight this side by side! Onward Christian soldiers -………can't remember the rest of the words! lol 🙂

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