Life Changes

Well, I believe that the Lord is mixing things up a bit in my world yet again.  For the last five or more years I have dealt with an illness that I don't know what it is.  It will go away for a while, and then come back with a vengence.  I continue to pray for healing because I know that the Lord still heals today — I am an example of that due to the fact that He has healed so many areas of my life since coming back to Christ in September 2004.

So the new change is He has prompted me to quit my job, stay home, and get well.  The doctors continue to test me for various things, and I see yet another specialist in June.  They continue to talk along the lines of an auto immune disease.  Interestingly enough, the Lord brought into my life a wonderful woman about a year ago who is a Christian, used to be a pastor (now does worship at her church), and has lived with Lupus for 12 years.  Our symptoms mirror each other.  When Joe and I realized that maybe I needed to quit we began to seek the Lord in that direction one weekend, and I had lunch with her on a Monday and she began saying all of the same things that we had just gotten done praying — quitting my job, staying home, and getting well.  Interesting how the Lord brings along a confirmation when we are not quite sure.

One of the things that the Lord has done in my heart through this is brought me JOY.  I have a JOY during the midst of trials and pain that I've never had before.  I have a love like I'd never had before.  It is amazing.  One night I had a particularly hard night, and got up early before anyone else and was in tremendous pain.  I got up and spend the morning with the Lord, in the Word, and realized that I had this tremendous joy.  I thought at that time that if I have this JOY and this love, then I can deal with this junk going on in my body.  Really truly.  If this is the fruit of suffering, then I will eat it!  I'm serious. 

Now, some people may think I'm crazy and not understand, but hey when has anything that the Lord has asked me to do made sense or when have most people understood.  That has never stopped me before. 

So here's the thing, I know that the Lord has something up His sleeve next for me, and He's not going to leave me in this condition forever — and if He chose to, you know what?  I'll praise Him even then.  You know, some people would say that that is a statement of lack of faith — not it's not.  It is a statement as to a great deal of trust for the One Who created me.  He has my life in His hands, and I trust Him with everything that is in me. 

God has called us to love Him with all our heart, soul and mind, and love our neighbor as ourself.  So I am doing my best to listen to His instruction, and pray for His will to be done in my life.

You know, when the disciples were with Jesus, they asked Him to teach them how to pray.  It's very simple. "Our Father, Who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name; Thy Kingdom come; thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven; give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, for thine is the Kingdom, the Power and the Glory forever, Amen."

It's quite simple.  It's not a magic formula.  It's that simple.  Start there.

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Author: Michele C.

First and foremost I am a Believer in Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I am a wife, a Mom, a young budding writer, and entrepreneur.

2 thoughts on “Life Changes”

  1. Amen Michele! Isn't it amazing how with every trial comes so much growth. You are an amazing woman of God and with the joy of the Lord both within you and around you, there will be no stopping you! You will accomplish great things and of that I am certain. This illness is not a roadblock, but a mere speedbump in your life and a springboard in which to share your faith and the goodness of God. I cringe when I think of those self righteous people who claim illness to be a lack of faith issue. In my opinion that kind of thinking is born of ignorance. I believe it takes greater faith to live in the midst of illness and still experience true joy, than it does for some of those people who are living in good health. Is it not easier to praise the Lord when everything is right in our world, than when everything is wrong? Praising Him in the storm is where real faith is tested and real faith is built. What others may see as a curse, I consider an opportunity to build an even deeper relationship with God. Healing begins on the inside and from there all things are possible!
    Romans 8:24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not have, we wait for it patiently.

  2. Patti – this is an awesome response/post! Thank you always for your encouragement, and yes I totally agree with you! It is much easier to praise Him when you have all the money you can imagine and all the health you can imagine — but with that, I think that we can forget Him because we think maybe we don't need Him. My examples are Jesus always first and foremost, the disciples, Paul, and the prophets of old — there are so many more examples of trials, suffering, etc., in the bible than the prosperity gospel (health and wealth) that gets preached today. I think that when/if people hear those messages they can get dissolutioned with the Lord if they don't get healed, or they don't have the "hundred fold" increase, or they get told that its because they don't have enough faith, or their not praying hard enough — I mean, how exhausting. So then you read all these books saying if you pray this, do that, etc., then you will get X. Well, what if that's not God's plan for you? Then what? A life with the Lord is not a magic formula that we pray, and if we don't pray the right kind of prayer or be absolutely perfect then we get what we ask for — its about relationship with our Creator.
    I know myself I got disgusted with a lot of the teachers/preachers that preach those kinds of messages. Today, I read the word, attend church, fellowship with other believers, and do my best to love the Lord with all my heart, and love others.
    Patti — I love you! Be blessed today and I am praying my friend.

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